昨晚屋外一陣貓哀號聲. 向窗外望去, 兩隻貓一白一黃糾纏再一起, 他們或許發現我在窗口偷看, 停止了糾纏, 白貓慢慢慢慢地起身離開現場. 黃貓 一會兒才離開. 我在想他們為什麼打架? 今早門口草地上一堆白毛, 少許黃毛. 我感到不舒服. 貓兒也有情緒, 肯定也會有痛覺. (10/27, 近日觀察, 恐乃爭地盤而相斗)
Last night, I heard cat wailing outside of my house. I looked out the window, two cats, a white and a yellow one entangled to each other. they may find me peeking out the window, so stopped the fighting. The white cat very slowly got up and left the scene. The yellow one waited a while, then left. I was thinking why they were fighting? There was a pile of white hair and a little yellow hair on the grass in front of the house that I saw this morning. I felt uncomfortable about it. Cats must have emotional feelings and have pain as well. (10/27, from recent observation, they seems fight for claiming the territory)
以上為題外話, 呵呵~ Above is digressing... heheh...
二十年前我用鐵絲做了一個遛狗的女人, 二十年後我把女人解構做成了一隻蝴蝶. 二十年前的我與二十年後的我情感上的轉變, 從接近現實我之女人形體變成超現實我之蝴蝶.
20 years ago I created a wire lady working a dog. 20 years later, I destroy the lady, and make it into a butterfly. It seems showing the emotional changes of me from 20 years ago and after, from a rather realistic woman figure to a surreal butterfly.
人有情感(神), 有精神(氣), 在有限的"物"界中, 無法表述明白或細緻, 藉由移情轉而更為趨近完整地成為"一"完整我. 而此"一完我" 是在不局限於偏, 或片面的我, 方能成. 是理性與感性俱足, 是神(spiritual, mind activity) 與氣(physical energy)俱足. 是從有意識的現實我的存在, 到忘我的超越而與萬物合而為一的神(spirit)的存在.
Human has emotions (spirit, shen), and energy (qi). Within the limitation of the world of "things", one cannot perfectly express clearly or meticulous. Therefore by the aid of transforming the emotion to something else, one can then be able to get closer to become a completed "whole self". And the "one whole self" can be completed under the condition of not confined by partial, or one side of "self". It contains both rational and emotional self. It contains both mind activity and physical energy. The self is existing from consciously realistic self to selfless transcendence to united his or her spirit to the great nature.
古琴曲 採真游, 與古琴曲 莊周夢蝶, 於我似乎更像是一回事. 尋找真理便是尋找自我本質. 本性. "不知周之夢為蝴蝶, 蝴蝶之為周, 周與蝴蝶必有分矣. 此謂物化. 小造化於形骸之外. 以神馭氣. 游燕於廣漠之墟與天地俱化. 與太虛同體." 蝴蝶之自在翩翩飛舞, 是莊周又或許也是我及許多人所嚮往, 而迫於形體上的束縛, 唯藉神志之所導, 得以自在遊走於廣漠與天地合一. 因此, 蝴蝶與周又有何分別? 若有分別, 就是形與神罷了.
The two guqin melodies, Cai Zhen Yo (Seeking the Truth) and Zhuang Zho Meng Die (Zhaung Zho Dreaming Himself as a Butterfly) to me are more like talking about one thing. What truth we are seeking might be the nature, the character and the personality of self.
The preface of ZZMD writes as " Do not know Zho dreaming himself as a butterfly, or butterfly as zho. There must be differentiation. That is so call Parinama. Transforming oneself beyond the shape of body, using the mental spirit to guide physical energy, one can travel within space and become part of the original entity of the universe."
Butterfly flying freely and lightly, that might be a favor of Zhuang Zho and me and many of us. Yet due to physical limitation, we can only rely on the guidance of mental spirit, so that we can travel within the universe freely. Therefore, what difference there is between Zhoang Zho and butterfly? If there is, just the shape and spirit, that's all.
十月十五, 秋高氣爽, 一點思想, 寥紀錄之. Just some thoughts coming out in the mid of October.
老子 第14 太初之道 (English translation can be seen by click the link and follow chapter 14)
... 在明白生命是如何進入"有"之後, 正是我們即將發現它的祕密時... 我相信這種對不知的虔敬態度, 將是導致科學家走向接受宗教道路的主因.
而今, 敬道的一方把自己投入有形無形的問題, 及看不見的因果關係中; 絕望的一方只有強迫自己想像一個從未被證實, 看見, 感覺, 聽到的[根] -- 一個原始的原則, 一種力量的泉源, 及一個決定性的因素.
道家口中的道, 是不言不行, 又無時不運行的寂靜行列; 是外在的活動寂靜的循環, 也是萬物復歸為始與出之有形, 入之無形的循環.
如此寂靜, 透徹的道家之[象], 形成了道家(希望保持本性又不違反道性)的典範. 因此, 謙卑, 寂靜, 忘私, 無譽等學說, 被散播在多變的宇宙中.
莊子外篇 知北游 認為無形是最有力量的.
不知 比 知 更是真知.
Not knowing (compare to knowing) is the real knowledge.
這"留白" 哲學 真是讓我為之著迷.
This "keep a blank space" philosophy really fascinated me.----------
10/27/2017 莊周夢蝶 各譜解題 標題 與後記 (存見古琴曲譜輯覽 查阜西)
幻: illusion, fantasy, mirage